Now my quit smoking update...
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I honestly feel like I am physco and was so close to losing it on my sister and telling her that I don't want to talk to her ever again or see her face but I know that is not what I really want and the quit is really hard on me the past few days. I thought it would be easier after 2 weeks but its harder. Me and my sister are fighting right now and I keep telling her to back off until I feel better and she is saying stop making excuses to not talk about it (the situation) and I told her I am not that I don't feel like myself right now but she won't listen...she keeps backing me into corner and talking a mile a minute and I just can't take anymore I feel like flipping out and telling her to F off and get out of my life I don't know what to say to her right now and everytime I do say something it comes out wrong cause I just feel like being mean...we both have been saying nasty things and she is saying I am so negitive which is not like me and defensive because it has to do with my daughter...so right now I am trying to avoid her because I am ready to explode like any minute...I have a effing heart but but she is not hearing anything only whats coming out of her own mouth...I have been quit like 18 days now and if something like this can't even make me light up a smoke I know I am done for good I am honestly really surprised that being that angry I didn't smoke. This is so hard...and no one seems to understand what I am going through cause they have never stayed quit long enough to feel what I feel. So I need to seek support from people in the quitnet.com network instead of my own family and it really sucks.
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on 9/20/2008
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3
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My back update
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Well I have seen the chiropractor 3 times now and this time he said my back is looking a lot looser than the first day I came in...wants to see me 2 times next week. Since last Saturday I started using a new chair for now and the doctor recommended some back support for everyone at my work to use if we don't plan on getting new chairs just yet...and boss is on board with anything and is willing to do whatever we need to get everyone's back feeling better again (we even had a meeting). The chiropractor recommends that I start yoga again and try to do swimming on a regular basis. He told me to hold off on Strength training for now. And over all I am just happy that my back is feeling better I don't need back problems at 30 years old and at least it something that is easily fixed by a few back adjustments and using a new chair...plus all my visits are covered by my beneifits at work. I am a happier camper this week!
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on 9/20/2008
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5.3
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Stupid chairs my boss bought!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Jeez I was at the chiroprator today because my back has been bothing me on daily basis and the doctor told to tell my boss to get me a new chair...like what the hell he is so cheap that he bought accounting people manager chairs the only thing those chairs are good for laying back lol...now everyone's backs are messed up. The doc said I can keep up my walking and start yoga again and maybe do some swimming and also use the jacuzzi while I am there and he said to hold off on my strength training for a bit. But I forgot to ask him about running I wanted to do a race with a friend but if my back is getting adjusted is it safe for me run train...does anyone know if not I will just ask him on Monday when I see the doctor next...I am not in excrucating pain in my back or anything just uncomfortable.
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on 9/14/2008
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9.1
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My walking day...
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Wow I did alot of walking today (actually all this week was like this even though I am on holidays I definately didn't miss out on walking if anything I did more)
I walked my daughter to school
from there I walked to tim hortons with my son to have a yogart and berries cup and bagel for breakie
then we walked to the hospital to visit my cousin who just had a baby on Sept 2nd
then we walked to the pharmacy to get the rest of my son's perscription
then we walked home
we stayed home for a couple hours and I did some cleaning and other stuff
Then we had to go pickup my daughter from school and walked back home again
then shortly after we got home we were off again
walked to the park and my son played in the park for awhile
then we walked to the hospital again
and finally we walked home and stayed home...lol whewww wow!
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on 9/5/2008
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2.4
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Smoking ugggg!
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I have a confession to make....I have a horrible addition of yes smoking...I have just quit yesterday. I have been struggling with trying to quit for the past few years or so but obviously not trying hard enough I had been to the point of cutting down big time only on weekends or only when I drink once or twice a month but no matter how much or how little I have not let go...I hate it so much it discusts me but the habit 0oh the habit I hate it so...I hate to say that I have been a smoker for just over 15 years. It's so hard also when so many people around me smoke. But this time its for real I want to be done for good...I signed up at quitnet.com someone told me about it and its a pretty cool site. I am doing this cold turkey and with no medication. I know I can do this...
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on 9/4/2008
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15.3
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