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Now my quit smoking update...
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9/20/2008
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I honestly feel like I am physco and was so close to losing it on my sister and telling her that I don't want to talk to her ever again or see her face but I know that is not what I really want and the quit is really hard on me the past few days. I thought it would be easier after 2 weeks but its harder. Me and my sister are fighting right now and I keep telling her to back off until I feel better and she is saying stop making excuses to not talk about it (the situation) and I told her I am not that I don't feel like myself right now but she won't listen...she keeps backing me into corner and talking a mile a minute and I just can't take anymore I feel like flipping out and telling her to F off and get out of my life I don't know what to say to her right now and everytime I do say something it comes out wrong cause I just feel like being mean...we both have been saying nasty things and she is saying I am so negitive which is not like me and defensive because it has to do with my daughter...so right now I am trying to avoid her because I am ready to explode like any minute...I have a effing heart but but she is not hearing anything only whats coming out of her own mouth...I have been quit like 18 days now and if something like this can't even make me light up a smoke I know I am done for good I am honestly really surprised that being that angry I didn't smoke. This is so hard...and no one seems to understand what I am going through cause they have never stayed quit long enough to feel what I feel. So I need to seek support from people in the quitnet.com network instead of my own family and it really sucks.
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